Friday, April 30, 2010
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Monday, April 26, 2010
The top picture is what it looks like when you go to the bathroom - we (or I) get to go by flashlight because the electricity is turned off during renovations. Kind of scary huh?? The bottom picture is with the flash because I wanted you to see the romantic side of it all...
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Friday, April 23, 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Total Weight Gain?: 19 lbs (no weight gain at my last appointment!!)
Maternity Clothes?: Yes for much needed comfort. I still wear a few non-maternity shirts, but pretty much all my clothes are maternity - thanks to friends and family for donating!
Sleep?: Pretty much sleeping, except when I have the potty breaks...
Best Moment this Month?: Hmm....Bon Jovi!! BG's baby shower :); getting past the 30 week mark...
Movement?: Yes! She is like a little alien in there! I have come to believe that BG is my little reassuring child....I tell her she needs to move a little for me and she does :)
Body Changes/Labor Signs?: Contractions here and there
Belly Button in/out?: it changes - it moves around when she does as well
What I Miss: being able to demonstrate dance moves without looking like a munchkin from the Wizard of Oz...
What I am Looking Forward to: BG being here! Maternity pictures this week; shopping for a pediatrician the next 2 weeks; a friend's baby shower; and a wedding! A busy next two weeks!!
Next appointment in 2 weeks where I will have a non-stress test, ultrasound - all that good stuff. I am very excited about seeing BG on ultrasound again! Heartbeat was good - 145, no swelling, blood pressure was low (98/60). Dr. Helmken felt a little foot when she was measuring my uterus :) Now if the next 2 weeks will just fly by I will be happy!
Monday, April 19, 2010
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Saturday, April 17, 2010
2 of the Hostess - Mrs. Sherry & Kara
The other hostess - Katie
The shower was better than a dream! I was surrounded by family and friends - all of whom have been there in my life when times were both good and bad. These are ladies that were there when John and I got married, they were there when Hudson died, and they are still here for me today as I prepare for our first daughter. I really cannot tell you enough how blessed John and I are - it still amazes us. I cannot thank Katie, Kara, and Ms. Sherry for hosting the most beautiful shower and for all of our friends and family that attended. (Pictures from the event on are on a separate post...)
The entire weekend was just perfect. It started out with Bon Jovi! On Friday my mom, sister, and I went shopping where we found a perfect little trunk to use as BG's toy chest! We also had pedicures - Vicki's treat - and then had dinner back at Tres'. Saturday was shower day and then later I took a nap at home. We went to eat at a Japanese steak house; the same one we celebrates Tres' 40th birthday at in '08. Sunday we went to church and then packed up to head home. Olivia told me to never come back again as I snapped pictures of her tantrum :) Of course she didn't mean it - I am her favorite aunt!
Friday, April 16, 2010
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
As a Christian you are looked upon differently when times get tough because lets be honest - it is easy to "act Christianly" when you slide through life without any bad experiences or hardships. Its easy to remain positive and upbeat and say that "everything is gonna be alright" when you haven't had to face trials. I was obviously pregnant and my whole grieving process was therefore public knowledge - whether because of being from a small town, facebook, going to a semi-small college, etc.; either way there was no way to escape. So what else could I have done but put my big girl panties on and let others see what was really going on - the good and bad. Doesn't it make it easier to know that there is someone facing the same trials as you? That others have been there? That you can still believe that God is good no matter what is thrown at you? It is even easy to be on this blog and pretend to always have the best attitude no matter what is thrown your way. What good would all of that do? Nothing - absolutely nothing because it would be fake and others would only become discouraged after reading the blog knowing that they were mad and had a hard time "having a Christian attitude" when times were tough.
Why is it that we try to mask our emotions and only let others see the good? Sometimes there just isn't good - sometimes life really kicks you in the butt and it stinks. Then when that happens what good does it do to have a pity party about your troubles? Nothing - there is no good in self wallowing. Letting others see your vulnerability, I have learned, is what helps others triumph over their hard times. You know the saying about being stronger in numbers? I think it comes into play in this situation because knowing there are others struggling in your same area makes you feel better instead of thinking "why does this have to happen to me". You have someone you can relate to go go to for help.
The past few weeks God has continued to shower me with blessings - blessings that come in the form of good friends, great friends, and friends that I have lost regular contact with. The messages I have gotten lately from friends that have been reading my blog have brought me to tears. Partly because I never knew what an impact this blog, my thoughts, my feelings, Hudson...what they have done to have an impact on others. Laying it all out there and having Hudson's death truly have meaning and purpose has come alive because of you; and I thank you for that, for making that dream of mine come true.