Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Luckily I have friends, family, and an amazing husband that are trying to take my worry away. John is positive that everything is going to be just great with BG and nothing is going to happen. Saturday was an emotional day for me anyway - it was Hudson's original due date. In my mind I should have been having his first birthday party while waiting for the birth of his little sister. Sometimes it makes it harder knowing that BG would still be here even if Hudson was still here. John and I want our children to be close in age and actually the original plan was what is panning out now - except we would have Hudson here.
At the moment I feel like I am holding my breath. I feel like everyone has been holding their breath with me - which is a lot of breath holding. There is going to be a huge gust of wind when BG is born as everyone exhales.
I need to start recording my thoughts when I take walks with Hunter. My post would've sounded so much better had I not forgotten other thoughts I had. Speaking of forgetting. I need to write a little prayer request list on here - please pray for the following:
2) My nephew Hugh. Remember the infected saliva gland? Well, from the scan that was performed they found a cyst on his brain. Its still too new to determine what needs to be done. Soccer and football are out. On Sunday he passed out and had a small seizure and was taken to the emergency room. The doctor does not believe the cyst is related - I will update when more information is given.
3) My grandmother - still with Alzheimer's. She fell and broke her arm and hip a few weeks ago and is now in a rehab nursing home for the next 3 months.
4) My dear friend Katie's father - they have found cancer and today he had a bone scan to see if
it has spread. We are praying that it has not.
5) My dear friend Christine's little girl that is due in May. I had mentioned before about the dilated kidney; so pray that it will all work itself out when she arrives!
I know I have more....I will add more as I get my thoughts together!!
Monday, March 29, 2010
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Saturday, March 27, 2010
On Monday I go to his office to learn how to check my glucose levels twice a day - by pricking my finger. I will have to check once right when I wake up and then alternate meals each day. One day breakfast, the next day lunch, the next dinner, and so on. I have increased my exercising and I am watching even more closely what I am eating. No more slip ups or allowing for junk...kind of hard when you have already been watching yourself so closely.
I have been feeling great the past few weeks - that nothing devastating is going to happen. With this I feel right back to where I felt months ago. I thought that being so close to 30 weeks was scary, but now its just outright scary being pregnant. I hear stories of people being scared about the birthing process and having the children once they are home, but have you ever heard of someone scared of being pregnant? I am ready for the birth - been there and experienced the worst possible birthing experience. I am ready to bring BG home - at least she will be there and I can see what is going on!
At this moment I want to stop planning and preparing for her arrival. I just want the next 13 (or less) weeks to pass on quickly and her to be here. I don't want to listen to everyone's "it's going to be fine" stories because the truth is they don't know that and there is always doubt in those voices. Truthfully I don't want to talk to anyone about it because there is not anyone here that knows what I am going through or knows how this feels. I am surrounded by friends and family with perfectly healthy children and here I sit scared of being pregnant. It's really not fair to have to go through the thought of losing another child. In general its not fair for anyone to have to lose a child at all. I plan on being a hermit the next 13 weeks - so if you don't hear from me (as in locally - I will still be blogging) don't take offense. I just want to live in a bubble for a little while.
Friday, March 26, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Monday, March 22, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Saturday, March 20, 2010
The neighbors always chain their dog outside and it bothers us. We would never just chain Hunter up and leave him be...maybe some dogs enjoy it. Personally, I do not think this one does. The little girls later came out to torment him/her with some sort of food. Maybe a burger...
Friday, March 19, 2010
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Friday I worked and then went to a Father-Daughter banquet our church hosted with my dad and sister. Vicki and knew it was for a younger crowd of girls, but our parents were insistent - so we went. They had a 20's theme and we were served pasta - and a delicious cupcake. This same night was the Shamrock March of Dimes 5K, but John went to represent the Henninger clan for the race. Last year we wore stickers in remembrance of Hudson - so John passed some out to friends of his.
Saturday I woke up (attempted to sleep in) and went to a consignment sale that is put on twice a year. I picked up some amazing bargains - 11 outfits for only $34! Saturday was the 1/2 off sale day, so it was fantastic! After the sale I went to April's little girl's 1st birthday party and had a great time. The theme was "Princess" and Ashlynn looked adorable! Next I went to my parent's house and visited with my mom for a little while - my dad was at the hospital with my grandmother. Thursday night she fell and broke her arm and fractured her hip. Say a little prayer! Hmm...next I went grocery shopping and if I had been fast enough with my camera I would have a picture of a woman walking in her long fur coat and hat. It was such a site to see in a very crowded Wal-Mart. I bought some kids hangers while there and when I got home I started hanging BG's (baby girl's) clothes up.
Sunday I woke up and planned to get up to go to church, but then I somehow ran behind - even though my clock automatically changed. So, I got up and cleaned the house and got ready to meet my friend Jennifer, who came in town, for lunch downtown. I had not seen Jennifer in almost 2 years - and I rarely get to see her because she and her husband live in Maryland. Jennifer and I are childhood friends (we have been friends since the age of 4 or 5) and she moved away to Ohio when we started high school. We walked around downtown - ate at Spanky's and then walked into the shops. The St. Patrick's Day characters were already out in rare form today. After shopping we stopped in City Market for ice cream.
After our goodbye I headed to Babies-R-Us to set up BG's registry. I really had not thought about registering - well I had, but I kept pushing it in the back of my mind. As you recall I am nervous about having a shower and I continuously teetered with the idea. A couple of my friends are hosting one for BG and I in Atlanta in about a month. Invitations are going out soon and I needed to get a registry started. Well....Hudson's registry is still up as well. It never fell off. So, I had a small breakdown in Babies-R-Us today when they deleted his and replaced it with BG's information. The poor girl that was at the desk - she was amazing though, even when I burst into tears. Her name is Kayla and she would have had a 2 year old right about now - she was 5 months pregnant when her water broke and she lost her child. Could you imagine working in Babies-R-Us with that kind of past? I think this is only about the 3rd time I have been in the store since we registered for Hudson....
I quickly picked out a few things - which I will be editing tonight - and then left and headed home. My dad's friend Thomas had come in town from Germany and he wanted to see John and I and our new house. He brought us the cutest little yellow towel bath hoodie as well as the Steiff bear from my dad. The rest of the night I have spent putting up old posts I have been meaning to get online - oops :)
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Friday, March 12, 2010
Paint supplies: $40
Thursday, March 11, 2010
The meaning of the song This Woman's Work is incredible. I remember first hearing it when I purchased the Felicity soundtrack, but this version was sung by Kate Bush. You have to listen to the lyrics a few times, but the song was written as a man's narrative during childbirth as he waits...amazing how this song touched me so long ago and now it has so much more meaning than ever before.
Last night Michael Lynche sang the Maxwell version of This Woman's Work - wow and incredible. The song takes more meaning though when you realize that he himself recently became a father. He missed the birth of his daughter to seek out his American Idol dream and to try for a better future for his family.
Last spring season on So You Think You Can Dance Melissa and Ade performed a Tyce Diorio choreographed piece that he created with breast cancer as his inspiration. Absolutely amazing and breathtaking. Not a single dry eye...
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
Saturday we woke up and went to Bradenton for the Pirates vs. Phillies spring training game. I love going to baseball games. The atmosphere is just so fun and alive at baseball games. John and I love going to any sporting event really. I don't know why we don't go to more Sand Gnat games here....the affiliate for the LA Dodgers. Anyways - it was great! I didn't know I was allowed to go until the day before because I was under the assumption that it was a "guys day at the game", but when John said there was a ticket for me I was quite happy! I did not know a single player on the field, but that is alright. I've never really followed the Pirates. John's dad is a huge fan and each year he says they are on a "building season" or something like that. Personally I am a born and raised Atlanta Braves fan - Tomahawk Chop! John did purchase a Pirates hat because it was themed for St. Patrick's Day and I wore it during the game because I like to be festive for sporting events. Had I known I was going to the game I would have worn something black and gold...my jacket was gold though...
McCutchen - his mom sang the anthem
The woman below had her own baseball terminology - "we need a homebase" - too funny; just in case you are wondering - she was saying the team needed a homerun. John and I giggled for quite sometime after her comment. She and her husband are Phillies fans and they went to Penn State - for some reason they were chanting it with a few fellow Penn Staters.
Sunday we drove home - and actually took our time. We stopped by the Hard Rock Casino for a couple of hours and I was asked by some men at the poker "not to have my baby at the table", so I took their money. They should not have made such a rude comment - it was their punishment! John and I stopped by Golden Corral to eat on the way home and then got back on the road to get back to Hunter! My mom stayed at our house for the weekend to babysit - which worked out nicely.
My parents recently (just this past Thursday) moved my Grandmother in at their house. Hunter and my Grandmother do not like each other, so it was best for my mom to house and dog sit. So far the transition seems to be going well with my Grandmother. I have not been there yet to check it all out, but I know it has to be a sad day for everyone. She is not in her right mind - Alzheimer's - and there is no way they could have kept on with her alone at her house, even if it was right across the street.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Friday, March 5, 2010
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Later that after I went to pick up Emily from school and then took her to dance. She is dancing with the same teacher I grew up taking from - and also where I help teach currently. We later went to eat dinner at CiCi's Pizza and then to see Hugh at the hospital - taking him some Krispie Kreme donuts. Next she got a big treat that night and stayed over. She has been wanting to stay over for awhile now, actually since we first moved in, but there has not been a good time yet. She stayed over and of course had to sleep in the bed with me, therefore booting John into the guest room :) Thursday morning I took her to school and that's the end!
There were a few funny moments from the night - like when she laid her head in my lap and baby Henninger was constantly kicking her in the head; or when we were having "family time" watching American Idol. **If you remember from John's post about how we each have our separate couches** Hunter was on his couch, John in the recliner and Emily was laying her head in my lap on the big couch. Hunter just kept staring at her head in lap and grunting/growling a little bit as if he was saying, "get off my mama". John couldn't start laughing.