Where did it all go?

Time - that is....it has flown! I just looked in my lists of posts and it has been a month since I have actually published a post. How crazy! I have 12 - yes 12 drafts in my little listing section, but it seems as if I start to write and either (a) forget what I sat down to write (b) was too tired to finish or (c) something/someone needed my attention. Everyday I think - "oh, I need to blog about that" or something of that nature. So much has been going on! In my little OCD world I would like for everything to be written in complete order of when each event took place; I will probably still post date a few things in the blog, but I guess I will just kind of write a hodge podge post and publish it so that you all know I am still alive and kickin'!

Let's see...work has been crazy for me. I have sold 11 cars as of today - amazing! I do not even sell cars, well, maybe one a month or something like that. John and I have been praying over a few financial goals and asking God for help in achieving them, as well as being able to glorify Him in a more monetary way. I promised God that if I reached the bonus level in car sales (which is 12 in a month; then another level at 18) that I would give Him my entire bonus check. Already I am 1 car away and I still have half a month to go! It was so surreal watching the entire "event" take place. It just shows how God is in control and He is listening to prayers. Do not get me wrong, I did not just one day pray for this and it happened - this has been a long time prayer. We had to make some changes in our budget first and then this all started happening. John and I went the entire month of October without eating out - no fast food, nothing. Well, there was ONCE we did, but there was no getting around it. That is a savings of about $400 per month. You know what's really cool? Our grocery bill stayed the same! If you are curious to know a few of the goals I will let you in on a couple. One is to be completely debt free - which we would love to include the house and eventually it will, but for right now that one is last on the list. Another is for me to be able to stay at home with Heidi and future little kiddos. That to me is a big one. The past two weeks have been great selling cars and seeing the debt go down and savings go up, but I ended up working a few more hours and it stresses me out not getting to spend enough time with Heidi. Even tonight somehow I ended up staying an extra hour. I almost wanted to cry because I just wanted to get home. Goes to show that when you ask for an answer to prayer it does not always happen in the exact way you are wanting it to happen :)

Hmm...OH a huge event happened. So, I am in no way a speaker or leader. I hate anything where I have to talk in a large group or really more than a one on one conversation...unless its very close friends. Sometimes I stutter because I think my brain goes faster than my mouth can catch up and it all comes out in one big dfrghawrihwi out of my mouth :) Anyways, at work this woman came into the office and she had run out of gas right in front of the dealership. I told her to go ask Mike to help her (thinking that the gas cans were full and I could not carry, lift, and pour). So she did. Mike went to check and came back in and said we were out. She came back in and I told her and then I offered to take her to the gas station. Well, this poor woman started crying and was all upset on the way (we first had to go pick up some money owed to her, which was where she was headed in the first place) and I told her to just let it all out. Donna had lost her brother in January, her house in May, her fiance had cheated on her, etc. She was on her last leg. I knew she was put into my path for a reason - look at all that had happened to her and what I could relate to. I told her about losing Hudson, my job, living with my parents, etc. and that people always say "things will get better" and they really have no experience in having the rough times. I pointed to the carseat in the back and explained to her that I was starting my good times after such a hard time. I spoke more about God and faithfulness and relying on Him and shared some other stories - she cried the whole time. When we finished the trip and we filled her car I asked her if I could pray for her. I actually prayed aloud. I never do that. When I pray to God I'm like a little squirrel that gets sidetracked and I have thoughts going everywhere - so I never offer to pray in groups. I knew from the very beginning of this trip I needed to pray for this woman and let her hear me pray for her. It was such a surreal experience and never have I felt the presence of God touching me more than I did at that moment. This was about 3 weeks ago - right before the car sales started....coincidence maybe?? I was so excited after it happened. I could not wait to share my exciting news to John and our small group. Such a big step for me! Its easy to write about faith and my belief and encourage in a blog...but to talk about it with a total stranger in person is such a leap for me!

Today Heidi is 5 months old. I will write more about her and all that she is doing in a separate post :)

I know there is much more I could write, but its late and I am tired...maybe it won't take me a month to write again :)